Juggling work, dance and volunteer work at xen. ALL ARE DRIVING ME NUTS. Having to travel here and there and the energy I have to give, I'm falling sick every now and then. I hardly have any sleep cos of cos of work and dance. I miss school, really. At least I do not have to wake up early everyday. How I wish a day can consist of 48 hours. I really need time to sleep badly.

Now, I beginning to give this question a serious thought. Should I still stay? Those volunteer work and skipping dinner cos of dance are really pushing me to the limit. Is it even worth doing so much. Sad to say, the sense of belonging is not even there. More and more restrictions as well. And of cos, those course fees are bloody high. Is money really not a problem, given the fact that I do not have extra time to clock those hours off. What happpened seriously. I used to enjoy my time in xen. Now it all feels different. I need time for friends, home and rest. But the fact that I'm reluctant to leave is, I love dancing.

I'm not trying to complain or whatsoever. I just pity myself, thats all.

I feel much better after letting all these out.